God is GOOD! He is not just good when I feel good, He is not just good when I see it, He is good all the time.
This past year has been hard, I have struggled through a lot of things...and i have grown so close to Him and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Those moments of crying on the floor grasping to what little hope I had left in my heart, searching, struggling, wrestling, waiting...all words that frustrtated me but now I see the beauty in and they are precious to me.
And so with all of my heart I thank my precious Father, because He is good to me, and I learned to say it even when it didn't make sense to. He took me on a journey of faith and oh how He has increased that in me. He really does work for good everything for those who love him. Why He has chosen this time to pour out his blessing on my life I will never know, but if I know one thing, I know that the God of this Universe and Jesus the lover of my soul...owes me nothing. And even if He should choose to never bless me with the things my heart so deeply yearns for I will whisper and cry and pray with the one who holds and cherishes my heart because He has proven himself faithful to me...I trust him with every part of it. My heart smiles inside me because of the secret love that we share, the secret things He whispers to my soul that make me want to stand up, spin around, and applaud the one who knows me better then I know myself. The fact that He has spoken his pleasure over me, his love, his adoration, the fact He sings to me, and He fills me in that way that no one in this world ever will. I love him not because of the things He gives me, but what a gift giver He is, and its true...we can't out give God...but I love Him because He first loved me and that means more then life to me. May I never ever take Him for granted.
Praise YOUR name LORD, Be glorified Always! You Bless my heart and I can not thank you enough.
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